my holidays!!

Sad to say, i have to adjust my routines after a while being used to wake up late every morning. Well, the hardest thing to do is waking up early every day! I didn't really enjoy my holidays till the fullest because for 4 days i was stranded. I didn't expect my car was going to broke down. Luckily my brothers were so caring. They asked help from their friends to help me fixed the car. Well, they have to actually. Wow, the best part was on monday, I drove my eldest brother's orange Satria since we don't have any transportation available. If not, I can guarantee 100%, he wouldn't allow me to touch his car...lol. By the way, driving his car was superb, can u imagine, a girl is driving a sport car?? its hot!!! As a matter of fact, his car is easier to drive compared to my father's one. I spent my holidays with my family especially my brothers. I brought them out, and I brought my mum out to E-mart. It was my first time driving to matang, Gosh, so many cars, luckily cars there were not very fast. Talking bout driving, I DON'T HAVE TO USE P ANYMORE. I've finished my 2 years trial.... Happy!! I went to JPJ to renew my Dad's car roadtax and my license as well. I did it on my own accompanied by my mum. I've learned something new. New experiences!! I also went to Serian with my Grandma and my aunty. I took some photos which i'll upload it later. Yah, I'll upload photos taken during my Chinese New Year holiday. However i feel sad because i didn't choose to follow my friends visiting during CNY. But, i didn't regret I didn't go because i've got to see my cousins on that day. Sad but no regret! Weird combination of feelings...haha, well, i am weird!!

something you really want but you can't have it.

my room!! i want it damn much but i can't spend my time in it anymore. maybe just for a while only, but not as before. the smell of it makes me alive, it smell so fresh. i really miss the time when i can stay in my room for the rest of the day without ever thinking bout 'kede'. staying at my secondary room, gosh, it is suffocating me. i can't breath. i have to adapt myself to the different environment, different people, different daily routines. it's hard but i have to. and talking about people, seriously, staying at a small community is sucks. everything u do, people will make a big fuss about it. they don't have other important things to do isn't it??? what the hell, if my home is messy, why do you bother about it. its my home!! honestly, i prefer staying at a place where no one is bother about other's business. isn't it easy, my business is mine, and yours are yours.  how i wish i can say like this in front of their faces. but i can't!!! because it is considered rude. because we as a young people should respect old people that are acting like BULLSHIT!!

bdw, here got a song's lyric that i really like. 

WALI BAND AKU SAKIT LYRICS

Aku sakit Bila menatap matamu
Sadarku Bahwa engkau bukan milikku
Aku sakit Bila ku mengagumimu
Sadarku Kau tak pernah mengagumiku

Bangunkan Aku dari tidur panjangku
Sadarkan Aku dari mimpi tentangmu
Kusalah Bila ku berharap padamu
Salahku Paksa kau tuk mengagumiku

Kau tak tahu Perasaanku
Dan ku tak mau Kau tahu

Aku sakit Jika kau tahu hatiku
Karena Diriku tak berarti bagimu
Aku sakit Bilakah kau sembuhkan aku
Tak mungkin Tak mungkin sungguh tidak mungkin

Bangunkan Aku dari tidur panjangku
Sadarkan Aku dari mimpi tentangmu
Kusalah Bila ku berharap padamu
Salahku Paksa kau tuk mengagumiku

Kau tak tahu Perasaanku
Dan ku tak mau Kau tahu

Bangunkan Aku dari tidur panjangku
Sadarkan Aku dari mimpi tentangmu
Kusalah Bila ku berharap padamu

Kau tak tahu Perasaanku
Dan ku tak mau Kau tahu

Aku Sakit 

damn, what i feel is totally same with this song's meaning.