I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!! 

GOD, PLEASE HELP ME.. 

WHY IS IT I HAVE TO SUFFER MORE THAN OTHER PEOPLE??

AM I BEING BAD IN MY LIFE???

I ALWAYS TREAT PEOPLE BADLY IS IT???

PLEASE FORGIVE ME THEN...

Sunday news.

Happy Sunday all! Today is 13 February two thousand and eleven. As usual I went to church but this morning I went to Carmelite Chapel since I didn't go back home this weekend. I don't know whether other people feel what I feel. Every time I go to church, I feel so happy and relieved. I feel like my burden is lessen. At church, I get to sing out loud, which I didn't do publicly unless it is done in a group of people. People always say that exercise can help us to release tension or stress. As for me, I feel free and relieved after I go to church. Sometimes when I was down because of certain things that happened in my life, I felt my spirit is lifted after I praised and worshiped God. I'll never stop praising Lord God and Jesus his son! When I'm at church, I feel secured and protected. I know that someone is watching over me and my beloved family. I know that my prayers are being heard by him...

By the way, one incident happened in Saberkas that wrenched my heart upon seeing it in front of me. There was one kind-of-mental disorder boy with his mother, sister and sister's little daughter waiting for their transportation in front of Saberkas. Coincidently, I was there too waiting for Uncle to pick us up. This boy seemed angry with his mother maybe because his mother didn't approve his intention to do something. He began to protest and he walked towards the long car queue and by using his walking cane, he wanted to hit all the cars' bonnet with his cane. But his sister scolded him and pulled him back. However, when I was inside Saberkas already, I heard someone was screaming. I turned back and I saw his mother was screaming and crying. I felt like crying. I couldn't imagine how would she feel about it. I felt like my heart stopped beating for a while. I wonder, why God made this kind of things to happen. However, every thing happens for a reason and only he knows what is the reason behind. I take this incident as a motivation for me. Whenever I feel down and feel like I am in the worst condition and situation, I will remind myself that there are people who suffer more and their condition might be worst than mine! Be grateful of what we have and be thankful that God bless us abundantly!

my holidays!!

Sad to say, i have to adjust my routines after a while being used to wake up late every morning. Well, the hardest thing to do is waking up early every day! I didn't really enjoy my holidays till the fullest because for 4 days i was stranded. I didn't expect my car was going to broke down. Luckily my brothers were so caring. They asked help from their friends to help me fixed the car. Well, they have to actually. Wow, the best part was on monday, I drove my eldest brother's orange Satria since we don't have any transportation available. If not, I can guarantee 100%, he wouldn't allow me to touch his car...lol. By the way, driving his car was superb, can u imagine, a girl is driving a sport car?? its hot!!! As a matter of fact, his car is easier to drive compared to my father's one. I spent my holidays with my family especially my brothers. I brought them out, and I brought my mum out to E-mart. It was my first time driving to matang, Gosh, so many cars, luckily cars there were not very fast. Talking bout driving, I DON'T HAVE TO USE P ANYMORE. I've finished my 2 years trial.... Happy!! I went to JPJ to renew my Dad's car roadtax and my license as well. I did it on my own accompanied by my mum. I've learned something new. New experiences!! I also went to Serian with my Grandma and my aunty. I took some photos which i'll upload it later. Yah, I'll upload photos taken during my Chinese New Year holiday. However i feel sad because i didn't choose to follow my friends visiting during CNY. But, i didn't regret I didn't go because i've got to see my cousins on that day. Sad but no regret! Weird combination of feelings...haha, well, i am weird!!