my room!! i want it damn much but i can't spend my time in it anymore. maybe just for a while only, but not as before. the smell of it makes me alive, it smell so fresh. i really miss the time when i can stay in my room for the rest of the day without ever thinking bout 'kede'. staying at my secondary room, gosh, it is suffocating me. i can't breath. i have to adapt myself to the different environment, different people, different daily routines. it's hard but i have to. and talking about people, seriously, staying at a small community is sucks. everything u do, people will make a big fuss about it. they don't have other important things to do isn't it??? what the hell, if my home is messy, why do you bother about it. its my home!! honestly, i prefer staying at a place where no one is bother about other's business. isn't it easy, my business is mine, and yours are yours. how i wish i can say like this in front of their faces. but i can't!!! because it is considered rude. because we as a young people should respect old people that are acting like BULLSHIT!!
bdw, here got a song's lyric that i really like.
WALI BAND AKU SAKIT LYRICS
Aku sakit Bila menatap matamu
Sadarku Bahwa engkau bukan milikku
Aku sakit Bila ku mengagumimu
Sadarku Kau tak pernah mengagumiku
Bangunkan Aku dari tidur panjangku
Sadarkan Aku dari mimpi tentangmu
Kusalah Bila ku berharap padamu
Salahku Paksa kau tuk mengagumiku
Kau tak tahu Perasaanku
Dan ku tak mau Kau tahu
Aku sakit Jika kau tahu hatiku
Karena Diriku tak berarti bagimu
Aku sakit Bilakah kau sembuhkan aku
Tak mungkin Tak mungkin sungguh tidak mungkin
Bangunkan Aku dari tidur panjangku
Sadarkan Aku dari mimpi tentangmu
Kusalah Bila ku berharap padamu
Salahku Paksa kau tuk mengagumiku
Kau tak tahu Perasaanku
Dan ku tak mau Kau tahu
Bangunkan Aku dari tidur panjangku
Sadarkan Aku dari mimpi tentangmu
Kusalah Bila ku berharap padamu
Kau tak tahu Perasaanku
Dan ku tak mau Kau tahu
Aku Sakit
damn, what i feel is totally same with this song's meaning.
